Mental Health Awareness Day

Today, October 10, is World Mental Health Awareness Day!  Mental health is something many individuals avoid speaking about. Either because of the fear of embarrassment, or being made fun of. We tend to focus more on physical progress rather than our mental progress. This often leads to an everyday negative action or thought; whether that be spending hours exercising or checking your progress every time you pass in front of a reflective object. Though what most never realize, is that one day we could have these abs we tried so hard to get, but the person in the mirror will still not be good enough, because of the lack in our mental awareness.

It is so important to me to promote having a positive body image. We should be proud of who we are. We should never feel consumed by our image we see of ourselves. Mental illness is an extremely exhausting battle and I wish it upon no one. It is going to be hard, but choose to not be a victim anymore. Stop the voices in your head telling you to avoid eating or to run that extra mile. Of course your not going to wakeup one day and instantly give up all your habits, but, with time, you will get tired. You will get tired of lying, and tired of watching loved ones get angry at you. Eventually, you are going to realize that you want to live. Reaching out for help and speaking about your mentality will create an atmosphere and lifestyle that causes you to remain on the path towards recovery.

I’m not at my best, or even at my worst. I am attentive, and I still battle with my mental health day to day. I have good days and I have bad days. Sometimes I believe falling back into my disordered habits is easier than continuing to deal with healing. But, I am dedicated to finding what helps me cope, and I try extremely hard to overcome each new struggle. Recovery is definitely an ongoing journey, there is always the chances that something triggering will happen to us along the way. In the meantime, do things that make you happy and surround yourself with people who bring out the best in you, and continue to support you every step of the way.

I am extremely proud of how far I have come and of the problems I continue to overcome. Over the last year and a bit, I have completely changed my outlook towards my mental health and taken control over it. I now listen to my body. I used to absolutely hate everything about my image and I put myself through so much suffering physically and mentally. Restricting, over exercising, purging and avoiding family and friends. I isolated myself from the world because I did not want to speak about my disordered habits of eating, and I felt most comfortable this way. But, what really sucks, that I realize now looking back, is how lonely I truly was. Seeing where I am now, surrounded by so much love, and having amazing new friends, makes me question why I put myself through that for so many years. And, it helps me realize that I do not want to spend life undervaluing myself because of how I think I look – and you shouldn’t either.

I wish the best to all those currently struggling with their own battles. I hope this helps you realize there is a light at the end of your tunnel – always remember to remain positive and strong.

I am sorry to those I caused pain and tears. But, I want to thank everyone who helped me reach this place, I love you.